Thursday, April 02, 2009

If You Get Lost Between The Moon And New York City...

That song's been running through my head for days, not sure why. :)

There is a letter that I have been trying to write since last August and I haven't been able to finish it. I've started it many times but I always end up throwing it away or setting it aside. It is a letter written to someone who really hurt me, someone who betrayed me in a way that cannot be forgotten. I have spent the past year and a half working on forgiving this person and I honestly have. However, I no longer want this person in my life and they don't seem to understand that. The letter that I have been trying to write is telling this person that we are no longer friends and asking this person not to contact or approach me again. I am struggling with how to find the words to state that without sounding accusing or angry. I want this person to understand that what they did is the reason why we can no longer be friends but I also don't want to judge or accuse. This person knows what they did and they don't need me to remind them. Anyway, I guess that the reason I am writing this post is to ask you to please hold me accountable. I have come to the point where I need friends bugging me until I get the letter done because I can't seem to be able to do it on my own. Even though this person hurt me, I hate the thought of hurting them back with my words. Please pray for me to find the right words and to get it done soon. And bug me until I get it done! :)

I just read back through that paragraph and I'm afraid that I sound judgmental and self-righteous. Please don't read it like that, but I don't know how else to phrase it. Thanks for listening!

1 comment:

Jenni said...

That is such a hard thing to do! I will be thinking and praying for you regarding your letter. I hope you will feel relief once it is done.