Sometimes I feel like a bouncing ball...

Sometimes living in another country is so hard that I just want to pack my stuff, buy a plane ticket and go home. And sometimes it is so easy that I can picture myself still living here when I am eighty years old. There is also a middle area where I am content and yet miss my friends and family. I wish that I spent more time in that middle area but I tend to bounce back and forth between the hard and easy stages instead. I wonder if it is always like this when someone lives overseas or if it will even out eventually. Any thoughts?

By the way, right now I am in the middle area where I am content and yet missing you all. Rachel commented today that I seem like I am doing well lately. I thought about it and realized that this is the longest that I have been content and happy since I moved here in January. That thought made me smile. Maybe it does get easier...

Gracie

This is Gracie, my new puppy. She is a two month old minature poodle and only weighs 1.5 pounds. She is adorable and completely attached to me which of course makes me happy. Today I took her to the vet to get rid of her worms and next week she is having her vaccinations. I cannot leave her alone for long so she goes with me everywhere. I love her but she makes me miss Sammy and Suki so much more! Tam, I have not replaced Sammy and Suki, I have just adopted them a cousin!!!

Why I Love The People In My Life

In Thailand:

• Because Rachel said that I sing better than Hilary Duff which was probably meant as a negative remark towards Hilary Duff but I took it as a great compliment towards my singing skills.
• Because last night Opal practiced dance moves with me after we watched High School Musical and her hip roles were as bad as mine.
• Because last night I had a very long and satisfying conversation with P'Max and Wor about Harry Potter, The Lord of the Rings and The Chronicles of Narnia.
• Because Peaw makes me smile just by walking in the room and she does a great job cutting my hair.
• Because when I call Run to tell her how much I miss her, she interrupts and tells me how much she misses me which makes me feel good to know that it is a two way thing.
• Because I just have so much fun hanging out with Im and every moment that I spend with her I am reminded of why I am here.

In the U.S.:

• Because Tamara is like a part of me that I am missing. She understands me and knows me like no one else. She also possesses so many qualities that I admire and lack, like creativity, wit and the ability to open locks with a bobby pin just like MacGuyver.
• Because a minute spent talking to Katie is so refreshing that I just want to pack her up and take her everywhere with me. She also represents so many qualities that I wish I possessed.
• Because my parents unfailingly call me every Sunday night and fill me in on their lives. They are such examples of who I want to be.
• Because my nephews bring me joy unexplainable in words.
• Because no matter how long I go without talking to Justin and David, when we do talk it feels like only hours since our last conversation.
• Because the first time I hung out with Jenn in 1995, I threw up all over the hallway (barely missing her) and then all over the bushes outside Bank of America and yet she is still my friend today.

I am trying this again

So I have been using friendster.com for my blog for a year and now I have decided to try out my old blogger account again. The main reason is because people have been complaining that they cannot comment on my friendster blogs and I really want to make you happy. Second, I am having some issues with Friendster and it may just be easier for me to come back over here. Now, I just have to figure out where to post all the pictures that I take... I will let you know when I figure that out. Enjoy!