"Growth is the only evidence of life." John Henry Newman, 1864

I've been suffering from insomnia lately, most nights not sleeping until 4 or 5am. That leaves a lot of time for lying in bed thinking, sometimes too much time considering I tend to over analyze things. Last night (this morning) I was thinking about change, a subject that could potentially lead to many more sleepless nights!

This has been a year of change for me. Last August I was still working at The Centre, but I was praying every day for God to release me. I didn't want to be there and I admit, I had a bad attitude. My heart wasn't in the ministry and I was confused about why I was in Thailand and what God wanted me to do. In September I left The Centre and continued to seek out what God wanted me to do. I was even more confused because suddenly I was without a primary ministry but I knew that God wanted me to stay in Thailand. In October I contacted Todd and Julie about volunteering for PMI (Powers Ministries International) while I had free time. In November I was planning outreaches and feeling passionate about ministry for the first time in a long time. December brought trips to villages, meeting people who I found I could easily love and knowing that PMI was a good fit for me. By January I was officially full time with PMI, having been asked by Todd and Julie to join their ministry. February was our Women's Conference which was a huge learning curve for me with all the details that go into planning such a huge event. March, April and May saw me traveling around the states, trying to raise support and learning that for the most part, America is poor. I learned that trusting God is hard for me but hugely important. In June and July I was back in Thailand learning to trust more, learning to pray, teach, love, listen and learning so many things that wouldn't fit in this post.

Last year at this time, I had lost my heart for people and wasn't sure where to find it. This year, I've found my heart again. I'm loving on kids and in return receiving love. I'm helping save children who have been sold into the sex trade time and time again and they are teaching me to truly love God. I am helping orphanages and churches, teaching leadership and ministry. I am training and debriefing missionaries. And in return God is teaching me, training me every single day. I am learning that when I am willing, God works miracles every single day. So every day I wake up and decide to be willing and follow God that day.

I hope that this changing, learning and growing never ends. I'm not saying that it is always fun, but the end result is always worth it. I thank God for this year of change and I can't wait to see where this next year leads me!

Thank you God!!