I'm tired.

It has been a month since I last posted something here. Sorry to all you devoted followers who are perched on the edge of your seats waiting to hear about my life...

I am tired lately and I can't seem to get enough sleep. When I go to bed at night, I lay there for hours because I have so many thoughts in my head and I can't turn them off. I used to be able to sleep till 11am on my days off, now I don't even come close to that time. It is a little bit frustrating but at least I know what is causing it.

I am moving to Thailand in six months. I have been reading books about the culture and what to expect when I get there and I am starting to panic. The thoughts that keep running through my head are, " What the heck was God thinking when he told me to go to Thailand? What the heck was I thinking when I said yes? I don't know if I can do this!" But then there is this other part of me that is so excited about following God's leading. Great things are going to happen! I guess that I just need to work on keeping the excited part of me in the forefront of my mind and not letting the scared part take over.

I sent out support letters a couple weeks ago and I am anxious to know the outcome of them. I need to raise $5000 in the next six months to cover all my start-up costs. I also need to have enough monthly supporters committed to cover my monthly costs of about $750. I find raising support exciting, I have been doing it here at Amor for three years and have never grown tired of it. I was talking to an Amor volunteer a couple days ago and he was saying that he couldn't work here full time because he would never want to raise support. I told him that raising support is a really cool thing. I will agree that asking for money sucks, but when people respond by giving you money, it is one of the best feelings ever. It feels so great to know that people believe in me enough to give me their hard earned money. I am amazed every single time that money comes in for me!

Keep me in your prayers as I am raising money and mentally preparing to go to Thailand. Also, keep me in your prayers as I am finishing up my time here at Amor, it will be hard to leave the people here.

Have a great day!